I went to another funeral mass today, ma. Yes. One more. I met his wife earlier this year. She didn’t know me, but when she heard that you were gone, she gave me the tightest of hugs and her eyes filled with tears although she spoke words of encouragement. Months later, she spoke of her […]
A new haircut. Dressing up. Looking great. Feeling gorgeous. Snapping a selfie to send it to you. Remembering you are not there. I miss you, mommy.
Seeing roses in my office garden, rushing to take pics to send to you, and realising… Telling myself mum would love that, I should tell her about it, then recalling… Publishing a photo I’m proud of, checking and rechedking for a comment that will no longer appear… a comment I can’t respond to with a […]
Mum loved to dress up. She’d pleat her sarees to perfection and wear pearls or gold. And yes, her trademark brooch. Today, as we celebrated her around the world, we did so too. We dressed in what could be called our Sunday best! Mum loved flowers, so begoñas, hortensias and gladioli were bought for her. […]
Traditionally we celebrate the 40th day of someone’s passing. Today marks the 40th day since mum joined the heavenly choir. Not being there in person to complete this last ritual is a heartbreaking choice a child is asked to make. Not being there, going to work and pretending that everything is normal, that’s way tougher. […]
The futility of it all. That’s all I could think of while eulogy after eulogy poured forth. Tears, sadness, guilt, remorse … After her retirement mum found it very difficult to adjust to not having much to do. 39 years in the same school left her in the same state as someone who finished a […]
Happy birthday, my rose. You loved being wished at 00:00 hours. You loved receiving flowers. You loved being sung to. You loved being the centre of attention, especially on your big day. I hope you get the message, that you are always the centre of attention.I can imagine you celebrating with the angels, bouncing off clouds, […]
I’ve always been a believer in ‘ask the universe for what you want and you’ll get it’. I asked. One thing I’ve always asked for was that moment when “life as I know it ceases to exist”. I expected it to be positive. After all, in the movie it was after their first kiss. What […]