I thought last year would have been the worst. I remember taking out the crib statues for a Christmas that wasn’t going to be like any Christmas we knew. It was difficult. But I was surrounded by people who loved you. Surrounded by people who knew and understood exactly how difficult it was to even […]
The Dahlias are blooming again. Beautiful, fresh and breathtaking. Today they adorned your sanctuary. How I wish it could have been you posing with them in your hands instead. Miss you, mommy!
I woke up at dawn and watched the skies go from grey to indigo. Up there in the sky was a shining light. Big, bright and beautiful. As the sun made it’s way over the horizon… the light from the star grew dimmer until I could only vaguely guess the position of the star. It […]
A rose for my Rose! Another 27th. Another month down. It’s not that I only miss you on 27ths though.The good thing about working from home is a chance to walk around the garden after lunch and stumble across a perfect rose. It bloomed just for you.
I started a new flowerbed momma. I hoed the ground, rid it of weeds, mixed in manure, bought a bunch of flowers and made sure they were planted that very evening.It’s just their second day, but they smile up at me. And with each heave of the hoe, with each sod i upturned, with the […]
I went for a very long walk, ma. The clouds sweeping away and the sun shining through was an invitation for to do something different. All through the walk through meadows filled with flowers, all I could think of is how much you’d enjoy it. How you’d want to be photographed at each spot, how […]
Mother’s day without a mother. Nothing hurts as much. Miss you, mommy! I wish I sent you all those flowers while you were still around to enjoy them. I wish you saw how much I love you. I miss you, my Rose. One day over, one day nearer to thee.
I heard this version of “Everybody Hurts” today ma… It had me in tears. You would have sung it just the same … cause you’ve seen more than your fair share of pain. Given more than your fair share of love.
People have been telling me to enjoy my trip. Enjoy it. Like that’s a possibility without you ma. I smiled politely at their comments. I cringed inwardly. They have no clue how difficult this is. I opened the drawer where I stored stuff I bought you from all my travels. Silly things that would make […]
